WHY ARE YOU STILL ALIVE?

GOOD DAY TO YOU

I TRUST THAT YOU’RE ALIVE, HEART PUMPING AND BREATHING FRESH AIR, SOMEWHERE IN THE WORLD.

I’VE BEEN CONDUCTING PERSONAL RESEARCH ON BELIEF SYSTEMS FOR A WEEK NOW AND IT GOT ME THINKING…WHY AM I STILL ALIVE? WHAT AM I LIVING FOR?

I CAN’T SEEM TO FIND AN ANSWER WITH A BACKBONE.

 

WHY ARE YOU STILL ALIVE?

WHAT YOU SAY CAN PRESERVE LIFE OR DESTROY IT

1429037426571_calvin-arguing_largeCAN YOU ACCEPT THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR WORDS?

IN A RECENT ARGUMENT WITH MY COUSIN, OVER THE FACT THAT HE KEEPS BULLYING MY LITTLE COUSIN, I REALIZED THE POWER THAT WORDS HAVE ON US. WE OFTEN GET INTO ARGUMENTS WITH PEOPLE NEAR AND DEAR TO OUR HEARTS AND IN THAT MOMENT WE SHARE WORDS THAT HAS THE ABILITY TO DESTROY LIFE AS WE KNOW IT.

HOW DO YOU REACT TO SOMEONE UTTERING WORDS THAT CAUSES YOUR HEART TO DETERIORATE AS IT IS UTTERED?

DO YOU WALK AWAY AND BREATHE OR DO YOU RETALIATE?

I RETREATED TO MY ROOM…

I KNEW THAT I HAD TO GET AWAY TO BREATHE BEFORE I DONE SOMETHING THAT I’D REGRET LATER. I HAVE A HABIT OF DOING THAT SOMETIMES. I GOT INTO MY ROOM AND STOOD DEAD STILL IN FRONT  THE MIRROR, STARING AT MY REFLECTION AND DOING MY HAIR JUST TO QUIET ALL THAT HE WAS SAYING…BUT IT STARTED PLAYING IN MY MIND, OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

I FOUND MYSELF BACK IN THE PASSAGE, WHERE THE ARGUMENT ORIGINATED.

I TRIED TO CONTAIN IT BUT IT HAD TO COME OUT, EACH AND EVERY EMOTION WAS FORCING MY LIPS TO PART AND SPEAK ALL THAT MY MIND WAS FEEDING MY HEART. IN THAT MOMENT I FELT THAT I HAD TO DEFEND MYSELF LIKE MY LIFE DEPENDED ON IT AND WHAT WAS THE CONSEQUENCES? OUR WORDS DESTROYED US, OUR WORDS BROKE BOTH OF US. WE COULD HAVE PRESERVED LIFE BY WITHDRAWING BUT WE HAD TO BE RIGHT, RIGHT?

AFTER IT’S ALL SAID AND DONE, I WAS LEFT TO PICK UP THE PIECES AND MEND IT. I MADE PEACE WITH HIM BUT HIS MOM REMAINS ANGRY AT ME. SHE BLAMES ME FOR HIM MOVING OUT.

SO MY ADVICE TO YOU, WALK AWAY, FAR AWAY. PRESERVE LIFE, PRESERVE FAMILY, PRESERVE RELATIONSHIPS. FROM MY WORLD TO YOURS, IT’S GOODBYE FOR NOW.

BORN, BREAD AND BUTTERED IN WESTBURY

Westbury

I RECENTLY HAD A SKYPE MEETING WITH MY MENTOR AND SISTER KAISA OSOLA AND WE CHATTED ABOUT THE IDEA OF WRITING POSTS ABOUT LIVING IN WESTBURY, NON FICTION, REAL LIFE STORIES THAT INSPIRE AND INFORM.

I THOUGHT ABOUT IT FOR 24 HOURS AND ON MY WAY TO ORANGE FARM, IT FINALLY DAWNED ON ME, LIKE A RAINDROP FROM THE NOW, GREY SKY.

WE’RE CURRENTLY EXPERIENCING WARFARE IN OUR COMMUNITY, DRUG RIVALS HAVE MADE OUR STREETS A BATTLEFIELD. NOT ONLY HAVE THEY INFESTED OUR COMMUNITY WITH DRUGS BUT THEY’VE ROBBED MANY INNOCENT PEOPLE OF THEIR LIVES, THEY’VE TAKEN BROTHERS, FATHERS AND SONS, AWAY FROM THEIR FAMILIES. JUST LAST WEEK I HEARD THAT MY FRIEND HAD LOST HIS COUSIN, AN INNOCENT MAN WHO LIVED A SIMPLE, HONEST LIFE. HE DIDN’T DESERVE TO DIE LIKE A BLOODY DOG ON THE CORNER OF KRETZSCHMAR STREET. THERE ISN’T ONE PRAYER MEETING THAT GOES BY WITHOUT HEARING ABOUT A MOTHER WHOSE CRYING OUT FOR HELP BECAUSE HER SON IS HOOKED ON DRUGS.

WHERE IS LAW ENFORCEMENT IN ALL OF THIS? I HONESTLY DON’T KNOW. YOU CONSTANTLY HEAR ABOUT LAW ENFORCEMENT RAIDING HOMES, SCHOOLS AND IMPRISONING DEALERS BUT LATER THAT WEEK YOU HEAR THAT THESE PEOPLE HAVE BEEN SET FREE FOR CRIMES THAT THEIR GUILTY OF. THEY RAIDED A LADY’S HOUSE NOT FAR FROM MINE, THEY FOUND DRUGS IN ONE OF THE ROOMS, THEY CUFFED THE OWNER OF THE HOUSE, SHE’S INNOCENT, SHE HAD NO IDEA THAT HER SON WAS MAKING A SMOKKELHUIS OUT OF HER HOME.

DON’T THESE DRUG DEALERS REALIZE THAT THEY’RE LITERALLY SNIFFING OUR GENERATION AWAY? THERE’S MARCHES AGAINST THE DRUG DEALERS , POLICE TIP-OFFS AND STILL NO CHANGE. AUNTY SAYS THAT THE ARMY NEEDS TO COME IN, “DIT SAL HELP”.

THERE’S SO MUCH DREAMS WAITING TO HAPPEN, OPPORTUNITIES TO BETTER OUR COMMUNITY, GREAT PEOPLE-STEVEN PIENAAR, MRS FLORRIE DANIELS, THE PRINCIPALS OF OUR SCHOOLS, LOCALS- WORKING HARD TO CLEAR OUR COMMUNITY OF A REPUTATION TARNISHED BY PEOPLE OUTSIDE OF OUR COMMUNITY.

FACT: WESTBURY IS A GOLD MINE WORTH INVESTING, A PLACE OF DREAMS, A PLACE RICH IN HISTORY, A COMMUNITY BUILT ON FAITH AND A STRONG BELIEF IN GOD.

SO THIS IS OUR CRY FOR HELP, GOD HELP US, RID OUR COMMUNITY OF THIS WARFARE, SEND PEOPLE TO ATTEND TO OUR COMMUNITY. AMEN.