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KNOCK, KNOCK SAYS THE CLOCK

TIME IS RUNNING OUT

LIFE IS AT IT’S PEAK

SO ARE YOU LIVING OR MERELY EXISTING

STUDIES HERE, CAREERS OVER THERE

PASSED MATRIC BUT I JUST CAN’T FIND MY KNICK

I DON’T KNOW, I JUST DON’T KNOW

WHY AM I HERE AND WHERE AM I GOING

A REAL LIFE AND DEATH SITUATION

LIFE IF I DISCOVER WHAT I WANT, DEATH IF I DON’T

WILL I LIVE TO SEE MY DREAMS BECOME A REALITY OR WILL I DIE WITH ALL MY POTENTIAL

FAITH IN MYSELF

A FEW YEARS BACK I RECEIVED A POEM FROM MY THEN ENGLISH TEACHER AND THE WORDS OF THAT POEM SOMEHOW STUCK IN MY MIND.THIS POEM NEVER FAILS TO MOTIVATE ME.HERE’S HOW IT GOES….

FAITH IN MYSELF

GOD GAVE ME FAITH IN MYSELF,

NOT ONLY ON DAYS WHEN I’M GOING GREAT AND WINNING AND NOTHING SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE  BUT ON DAYS WHEN THE WHOLE WORLD LOOKS LOUSY AND I’M LOSING AND THE ROAD AHEAD SEEMS TOO HARD.

WHEN I WONDER IF I’M BRAVE ENOUGH,SMART ENOUGH AND I MUST BE CRAZY TO TRY,DON’T LET ME QUIT LORD,NOT EVER.

LET ME KEEP THE FAITH IN MYSELF.

NO MATTER HOW MANY PEOPLE

DISCOURAGE ME….

DOUBT ME….

LAUGH AT ME….

WARN ME….

THINK ME A FOOL…

DON’T LET ME LISTEN.

LET ME HEAR ANOTHER VOICE TELLING ME,

‘YOU CAN DO IT AND YOU WILL!!!’.

IF NOBODY ELSE IN THIS WORLD GIVES A DARN OR BELIEVES IN ME,LET ME BELIEVE IN MYSELF.

I KNOW THERE’LL BE TIMES WHEN I WILL DOUBT MY OWN ABILITIES,

WHEN I’LL BE DISCOURAGED AND ON THE VERGE OF DESPAIR,

DON’T LET ME GIVE UP,HANG ONTO ME.

FAN THE FIRES SO THAT I’LL TRY EVEN HARDER.

GIVE ME MORE FAITH IN MYSELF.

DEAR LORD,YOU ARE THE SOURCE OF MY ABILITIES AND MY FAITH.THANK YOU FOR REINFORCEMENTS.

I KNOW THAT YOU WILL GIVE ME FOR WHAT I ASK…

FAITH IN MYSELF.

LOVE AND BEST WISHES FROM MY WORLD TO YOURS…

IF I SUDDENLY BECAME FAMOUS…

IF I SUDDENLY BECAME FAMOUS I WOULD GO CRAZY….FIGURATIVELY…HAD YOU THERE FOR A MOMENT :-)…

IT WOULD HONESTLY BE A DREAM COME TRUE…SINCE I WAS A LITTLE GIRL IN THE DUSTY POPULATED STREETS OF WESTBURY,I HAVE ALWAYS DREAMED OF BECOMING FAMOUS FOR SOMETHING PROFOUND.

I WOULD DIE IF I BECAME FAMOUS FOR HURTING SOMEONE OR BE THE CAUSE OF SOMEONE’S MISERY.

SO BEING FAMOUS I’LL OBVIOUSLY BE INTERVIEWED BY GIULIANA FROM E! NEWS OR MORE HOME GROWN BY NOLEEN FROM 3 TALK.SO I CAME UP WITH 2 QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS THAT I’LL HAVE READY FOR THEM:

WHAT ARE SOME OF THE POSITIVE THINGS THAT HAS HAPPENED SINCE YOU BECAME A HOUSEHOLD NAME???

‘LET ME FIRST START OFF BY SAYING THAT WITHOUT GOD AND THE SUPPORT OF ALL OF YOU OUT THERE,I WOULD’NT BE HERE,SO THANKS ONCE AGAIN…WELL LIFE  AS I KNOW IT HAS CHANGED,I JUST BOUGHT A HOUSE FOR MY MUM AND GRAN,WHICH IS SOMETHING I’VE ALWAYS WANTED TO DO.I PARTNERED WITH A CHARITY DEAR TO MY HEART,WHERE I GET TO GIVE SECOND CHANCES TO WOMEN AND CHILDREN.PEOPLE FROM EVERYWHERE HAS BEEN CONTACTING ME REGARDING MOVIE ROLES,GUEST APPEARANCES,AN ICON IN THE FASHION INDUSTRY GAVE ME A COLLECTION OF CLOTHING FREE OF CHARGE, A WELL KNOWN PRODUCER EVEN ASKED ME TO RECORD WITH HIM.SO IT HAS BEEN PRETTY EXCITING’.

WHAT ARE SOME OF THE NEGATIVE THINGS THAT HAS HAPPENED???

‘I NO LONGER HAVE A PRIVATE LIFE AND IT SUCKS…I GUESS IT COMES WITH THE TITLE OF ‘FAME’.MY EVERY MOVE IS BEING PHOTOGRAPHED,AS EARLY AS IN THE MORNING WHEN I’M OFF TO GYM.WHICH IN MY EYES,SUCKS’.

HAVING SAID ALL OF THE ABOVE,I THINK THAT FAME WOULD BE A GOOD ADD TO MY LIFE,BUT IF IT COMES AT THE EXPENSE OF MY PRIVACY BEING INVADED THAN I’LL RATHER PASS BECAUSE I’M A VERY PRIVATE PERSON,I DON’T WANT MY FUTURE KIDS TO BE PHOTOGRAPHED ON THEIR WAY TO SCHOOL,I FEEL AS THOUGH I’D ROB MY FAMILY OF THEIR LIVES IF I SUDDENLY BECAME FAMOUS…ON THAT NOTE I’LL HAVE TO END :-)…

LOVE AND BEST WISHES FROM MY WORLD TO YOURS…

HOW CAN WE RE-DEFINE OUR ATTITUDES AND IN RETURN CHANGE THE WAY THAT OUR COMMUNITY VIEWS THINGS???

I THINK WE NEED TO SEE THINGS FOR WHAT THEY ARE!!!THE MEDIA HAS CREATED A FAKE FACADE OF HOW WE AS THE YOUTH SHOULD LOOK AND HOW WE SHOULD REACT,WHICH I BELIEVE IS A BUNCH OF BULL,FOR THERE’S MORE TO US.THE ONLY WAY OF RE-DEFINING OUR ATTITUDE, IS IF WE BE THE CHANGE THAT WE WANT WITHIN OUR LIVES ,TO REACT POSITIVELY TO ALL THAT’S PULLING US DOWN AND TO GET OUT OF THE BOX THAT WE’VE  BEEN PLACED IN.

AS FOR THE COMMUNITY,I THINK THAT WE CAN CHANGE THE COMMUNITY THROUGH THE WAY THAT WE CHOOSE TO LIVE OUR LIVES.YES OUR LIVES DIFFER AS OUR FACES DIFFER,OUR NEEDS DIFFER BUT THE WAY WE REACT TO SITUATIONS AND ISSUES SHOULD BE IN ALIGNMENT BECAUSE WE ARE ALL FIGHTING COMMON PROBLEMS.

WE SHOULD FIGHT FOR ONE ANOTHER INSTEAD OF AGAINST EACH OTHER.WE NEED TO DO SOMETHING THAT  HAS NOT  BEEN DONE TO CREATE INTEREST THAT IN RETURN WILL LEAD US TO AN ATMOSPHERE WHERE EVERYONE CAN GET THEIR POINTS ACROSS,WHERE EVERYONE SPEAKS UP FOR THEMSELVES AND STAND THEIR GROUND,WHERE FEAR WILL NOT PARALYZE US BUT PROPEL US…AS FOR THE REST,WELL I’M NOT SURE.LET’S WAIT AND SEE HOW EVERYTHING FALLS INTO PLACE.

WHERE AM I AT THE MOMENT???

WHERE AM I AT THE MOMENT???

WELL AROUND I WOULD SAY…YOU KNOW LIFE IS VERY FUNNY WHEN YOU TAKE  TIME TO WATCH IT…

I FOR ONE ALWAYS SIT AND REFLECT UPON MY LIFE TO SEE WHERE I AM CURRENTLY AT,TO REALIZE THE EXTENT OF MY GROWTH AND ALSO TO SEE WHERE I NEED TO RECTIFY.SO HOW ABOUT I DEPICT THE VERY ESSENCE OF MY LIFE ACCORDING TO THE POINTS I HAVE JUST STATED…

CURRENTLY-I AM AT A POINT OF MY LIFE WHERE I HAVE NO REGRETS,NONE AT ALL.EACH AND EVERY DECISION I HAVE BEEN FACED WITH   HAS SOMEHOW GROOMED ME INTO THE WOMAN I AM TODAY,WHOSE STRONG AND VERY OPINIONATED.

MOMENTARILY-I HAVE BEEN CAUGHT UP  WITH SO MUCH WORK AND I HAVE HARDLY HAD TIME TO MYSELF,WELL THIS IS THE “NATASHA” DREAM AFTER ALL(CHUCKLES) .

MY WORK-I AM A VOLUNTEER AT THE FOLLOWING NON PROFIT ORGANISATIONS-KHULISA UBUNTU CLUB,WORK IN PROGRESS SA,ACDC WESTCLARE FILM CLUB AND CHEESEKIDS WHICH TO ME IS MY LIFE.THESE ORGANISATIONS HAVE GIVEN ME SO MUCH THAT CANNOT BE BOUGHT IN MONETARY VALUE AND I HAVE GROWN IMMENSELY.

RECTIFYING- I WOULDN’T WANT TO RECTIFY ANYTHING,FOR ALL THINGS WORK OUT FOR THE BETTER,THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE UGLY.

SO IN A NUTSHELL I AM AT THE PEAK OF MY LIFE,I JUST TURNED 21 AND THE WORLD IS MY OYSTER…BEST WISHES FROM MY WORLD TO YOURS….